Missing someone who hasn't gone yet is so strange but I'm feeling it like a cold wind down my back right now.
Hello to all those people who will ignore this, tbh my fucks are gone and I'm floating in a world of tea and different types of cereal; welcome to my life now. Spending £80 on used books for my course is a bloody joke as well, but what can yah do. I'm gaining friends/strengthening the friendships I have with every lecture and seminar yet I'm losing one of my closest since coming to uni. That's weird. That's really weird. I mean he's going to Spain, and it's just surreal, I mean I'm happy for him but I'm also indescribably miserable about it. Missing people who are close to you no matter how much of an idiot they are, is still like a part of yourself
is missing. So yeah that's one more person I'm gunna miss in my life, but I'm hoping we can stay in contact, hopefully.
Other than that got an upper 2nd on my creative writing piece which I'm really mega proud of, but yeah.
I'm a bit emotionally compromised at the minute.
I also know that no one's gunna read this because I have virtually no friends on here except for the ones I know in real life, so it's kinda safe to be sad. I am sad.
But I'm kinda trying to be hopeful about what the future brings because I know that I can make it worth it. I'm looking forwards to discussing ideas with someone about a bookshop-coffeeshop that I really want to build up from scratch, it's my dream. It's what's keeping me floating on the sea of uni instead of drowning. It's the equivalent of a morning cup of tea that tastes just right, that first gorgeous sip that offers something more and makes you wonder if your day might actually...be alright. You know? It's all I want in life, and it's going to be bloody difficult to get to that point but I want it to happen, I need it to happen, and I'm happy at the minute, no I'm content enough at the minute to wait for it to happen one day as long as I work for it. Like anything really.
I'm not going to feel bad for wanting that life either, I need that dream to stay awake.